Tuesday, June 11, 2013

you, are my reason.

there comes a time when the world overwhelms you. when you feel so small, and insecure and insignificant, and the troubles and travails you face seem insurmountable.

At times such as these, one contemplates walking away from all of it, just getting up and giving it all up, thinking about the uselessness and profanity of existence.

One look at you dear daughter, and no matter how hard these feelings are, no matter how huge the need to pull away and walk away, to cede some relations, to end some and kill some, all are swallowed inside.

you are the reason for my being, the reason i try to keep my sanity, the reason why i push through and keep brave. you, my love, you are my ray of sunshine and my ball-n-chain all at the same time.

thats why when i look at you, i smile and cry at the same time. i love you dear daughter. i hate the loss of my freedom due to you, but i love you as much as i love my freedom.